Life's about moments of impact, and how they change our lives forever.

Hello, my name is Allie. I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl on May 15, 2015. They say labor is the only blind date where you meet the love of your life forever. That statement is so true. I gave my baby girl up for an open adoption the day after I got out of the hospital. It has been almost a month now since I've not had her. I'm grieving really bad. I know this was the best decision for her. I'm 19, and still in college. I had no family support throughout my whole pregnancy and barely had anything to offer her. Not only did I lose my precious baby girl, I also lost my family. They have shut me off since I gave her away. I don't look at it as "giving her up". I hate it when people use that term. No, I did not give her up. I put her way up and above myself. I made a selfless decision and I know everyday I have to get out of bed and accept it. Most days are extremely hard. Some days I just want to lay in bed and cry. I'm still not at peace with my decision. I'm hoping soon I will be. She's growing so fast each day and it's breaking my heart. I get a bunch of pictures each week so I know I'll always be apart of her life. If it was for having her dad I don't know what I would. He's been here with me through all of it. I guess what I'm trying to get out is how did you guys come to peace with your decision? I just want to say to all you other birth moms out there that chose adoption you are truly amazing.